8th January

I
have used 8th January as my status in my msn or yahoo for the last 2 days and,
since then, I have received more than 10 messages asking me about that date.
What happened on 8th January in Arifin’s life? Well, for those who read my
blog, they will find out about what does the 8th January mean in my life.

On Monday, 9th January, I received a short sms which told me that my ex-gf is
married now. Her wedding was held on 8th
January 2006 in Jakarta’s
Shangri-La Hotel. Second message which I received from the same sender was
"are you okay with that?". "Are you okay with that?" …
For awhile, I was stop and started to think whether I am alright with that.
Before letting you guys the outcome of my thought, let me do some recap on my
past with her.

We were together for about 6+ years, including 7 months period of our first
break-up. She was my first girl friend. Just like a normal dating relationship,
our was started way back in university life. When I first met her, she was
wearing yellow sweater and we were watching movie at George Street’s Hoyts in Sydney with other university mates. At that time, we do not know each other and
nothing happened after that. The following semester, I found out that she was
actually my younger sister best friend. We met more often and got to know each
other furthermore. As time goes by, we finally hit on and started our first
date on 3rd May 1997. That
was the first chapter of our book started I might say. We had amazing
experiences in our 6+ years of relationship. It has all sort of feelings within
that period. Back then we quarreled more than any couple had, I think. I have a
very bad temper and she was very stubborn gal. It was amazing just to think
what we have been through. I do not think I have all the time to just summarize
our relationship. In short, it is a relationship which you can not just throw
it away.

Now, back to the earlier question from my mate (keep you anonymous ya):
"Are you alright?" I quickly replied him and told him that I am fine.
Afterall, it was like 2.5 years ago when we were last together. We have not
kept in touch after that. You can say that we did not have a good break up at
the end. I kept thinking after that and asked myself the same question. Try to
make sure and I can finally sense some feeling of relieve which is very good.
Then, I know that I am really okay. I feel happy for her that finally she
manages to find her other half, someone who can love her more than she loves
him and give her comfort and leave no burden to her. At least that was one of her
wishes for her next beau. As for me, I can finally write the final chapter of
our book and close it forever. I believe my other half is just around the
corner and when I find her, we can start our very own never ending book
eternally.

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